Day 16 at Healthsouh

So, as I sit here at 10:15pm spending the night with mom and wathcing her sleep. I have so many thoughts that go through my head. I can remember one day while driving home from the hospital just crying so hard that I was physically shaking and it was uncontrollable. I kept thinking that I just can't do this, I was overwhelmed and just kind of beside myself. I realize that my mom is strong and that I am her daughter and I am strong too. I can do anything for my mom, anything at all, my goal is to make her happy and help her to get well. I remember days of her being so tired that all she could do after therapy was sleep. she still has some dayhs like that, but she is awake more than she was when she first arrived here. They have helped her to swallow better and she has "graduated" from pureed food to mechanical soft food. I am reflecting on the outpouring of love that we have experienced from family and friends. So many have come to see her, she has many friends and lots of people that love her.

She is one of the lucky ones here at Healthsouth, there are so many that have no visitors. It seems so sad to me. I have made it a point to speak and check on the lady across the hall, she seems so sad and she hasn't had many people come to see her.

I am so thankful for my sisters, my daughter and my husband. This journey has been hard on all of us, we are tired and we are sleepy, but we are not complaining, we have the easy job, Mom's has the hard job. She has the struggle of getting better and dealing with her deficits from the stroke.

I just want to take care of her and make sure that she has everything that she needs. Our plan is to take her home when she is discharged from here. She deserves to be in her home and we are committed to making that happen. We have been told that it will not be easy, but that's okay. I am sure it was not easy raising the four of us kids. She deserves everything that we can do for her whether it is hard or easy, we can and we will do all that is within our power. We will pray that the Lord will give us strength and wisdom to handle this situation and I know He will. He has brought us this far and He will continue to help us.